Friday, March 26, 2010

I Think I Made You Too Small

I can walk again! No more crutches or brace! Granted, I walk a little... odd. But I am confident that will resolve itself in a few days. I am so blown away by how God has showed up through all of this. I am over a month ahead of what I should be. I was "supposed" to be on the crutches for another month and then the brace for a month after that. I was so afraid that God had kinda "maxed out"on His miracle working for this situation. I was trying to pray that whatever brought Him the most glory would be done, but really I struggled to not just want Him to heal me. I was listening to What Do I Know Of Holy? (by Addison Road. I'm obsessed. my iTunes play count is almost 70. since Saturday) on my way home. One line in the first verse says, "I think I made You too small." This song has brought me to tears many times, but all of a sudden I realized how small I was making God when I actually thought maybe He wouldn't answer my prayers. I am so blown away by God and what He has done with this whole situation and am so thankful to be walking on my own 2 feet again!

God is so good, my friends. So, so good.

I made you promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all
If You touched my face, would I know You?
Looked into my eyes, could I behold You?
What do I know of You who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood but the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire?
Are Your fury?
Are You sacred?
Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of holy?
I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
But those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees
What do I know of holy?
What do I know of wounds that would heal my shame?
And a God who gave life its name
What do I know of holy?
Of the One who the angels praise
All creation knows Your name
On earth and Heaven above
What do I know of this love?
-What Do I Know Of Holy?, Addison Road


  1. I am so happy for you!!! I love reading your blog... I feel like I get to stay completely up to date with what's going on with you by reading it (and by talking to Sims!). Your heart, your desires, fears, thoughts... everything... remind me SO much of myself. It's amazing to watch what God is doing in your life and your heart for Him is so sweet.
    I know I don't get to see you or talk to you much, but I love you! And I'm always here if you need "another Kelly" :)
    P.S. My baby girl wants to hang out with you soon!!!

  2. I love that you read this and I love keeping up with you on yours! I'm glad you're in my life, even if it's mostly via blogging right now :), and I want to come play with you and Brooklyn very soon! I'll be home again in a few weeks! :)